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broken ballerina

by ghost mail

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1.
….And I love you For what it’s worth. And I saw you without a shirt At the bottom of the lake You’ll find a mailbox, it was fate Open the letters and you’ll find my heart Everything is blurry, I cannot see The water suffocates me When we drown, hold my hand, hold my hand, please hold my hand
2.
I, I can't deny I'm paralyzed from the inside Every day I wake to feel the same And every time you ask me how I'm feeling I just smile and tell you that I'm fine I, I don't know why I'm terrified of everything Just to call the doctor seems so daunting For most of my life I felt a sharp uncertainty Now it’s just become a part of me I, I can't deny I'm paralyzed from the inside Every day I wake to feel the same every time you ask me how I'm feeling I just smile and tell you that I'm fine It's hard to stay true, to myself and to you I can't measure up to this boy you thought you knew This aching in my heart is tearing me apart But, darling all your love is somehow not enough
3.
Wash your face girl there’s no more workouts 9 to 5 that’s what your life’s about No more fake smiles it’s all for real now Blank faces and closed mouths No more twirly dresses dancing on hardwood floors Just you walking out through open doors Every time you spun around You drowned in yourself pity wanting more But life is hard after dancing for so long
4.
clumsy drunk 02:23
Oh, broken heart, will you mend tonight? Oh, clumsy drunk, can you pretend to care? I’m in this bedroom wasting my heart away Rotten soul collapses I spill alcohol on the cigarette tray
5.
The sun is hidden behind the clouds the sun goes down, I see it fall I write your name at the grocery store I want to see what it’s like to be you I’m lying down, it’s raining now when things are gone you can’t have them back I close my eyes, it’s late at night I hope I won’t have that dream again.
6.
cuz you left 02:31
I thought you left please get outta my head You just won’t let me ever forget Cuz you left me alone again You stopped with the calls and texts I was so damaged get out my head You can’t just let me ever forget
7.
ferris wheel 01:53
We were laughing atop of the world. You smiled and said, “I love you” Then you leaned in and put my arm around you. And then we shared the most passionate conversations. We looked down and saw little specs of dots on the ground. It was just you and me. It was just you and me. You and me
8.
Did I know you would quit on yourself today? Dancing has always been your life before me And I wish you would just go far away And I wish you could just stop dancing for today Where was I when you left the city? Why didn’t you call me? I will always pick up for you

credits

released August 1, 2017

album recorded november 2014- june 2016.

written and recorded by rudy castillo- vox, electric guitar,
acoustic guitar, synth, drums, keyboard

artwork by Rudy Castillo

thank you to family and friends

thank you Alyssa for letting me record music in your home

thanks for the listen

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